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I'm tired, and a little hungry.nnThat's probably why my spirits have sunk to a new low. It tends to happen whenever my energy levels take a nosedive, and all I can do is wait and ride it out.nnI don't want to talk any more right now
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It's been a long week already. Panic and mayhem intermixed with many great accomplishments. I have to admit, I really wish it was the weekend, I'd love to take a day, turn off my cellphone, and NOT check my email (wouldn't that be unusual) and just go out and wander through town with a backpack and an ipod, and just forget about work for a little.
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I've got a project due june 1. Lucky me, I'm on vacation on the 27th. So 23 days. No sweat right? Umm.. I haven't read the product spec, and I'm not exactly sure what my part is. If I take weekends off, 17 days. Just over two weeks to design, develop, implement and test my section of this product. That's going to be a little crazy I think. Luckily my trainees are turning out well, so I've been able to offload quite a bit of work onto them, which has given me just enough time to work on the support work I'm also doing. Still not making any headway on the project yet, but it looks like I'll be able to afford it a little bit of the time it deserves starting tomorrow, I'm just not enthusiastic enough tonight to jump back into the fray.
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I've been chatting with someone new recently, and I must admit it's keeping me quite interested. I'm not going to say much more than that for the moment, lets leave that world processing, and come back to it one day in the future.
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I still haven't heard from my cousin A, I don't think she's doing well, but she was getting help the last time I heard anything about her, and I'm crossing my fingers. I'm planning on stopping in to see her when I hit nelson at the end of the month.
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I'm quitting smoking again I think. It's … a hassle. I mean don't get me wrong, it gets me out of the office at intervals, and that's probably healthy for all concerned, but I was doing fine with just 1 cigarette during a working day, and now I'm not. That doesn't work for me. So I'm on my last pack, and I'll likely pick up some patches on the way tomorrow, and give away any smokes I have left at that point. It's not like it's really hard to quit anyway, it's a couple days patched up, then done.
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Personally I couldn't believe how easy it was the last time I quit. I thought it would be harder, but I guess it gets easier every time you quit. I only really started again as a reaction to the stresses I was going through, and I think I can do without it now.
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I finished my car repairs, and everything seems to be running well. It cost a bit more than I'd planned on, but I was still able to cover it without any real hassle. Car insurance is coming in the middle of the month, but luckily I get paid the day before, so it shouldn't be an issue. Too bad I don't get paid before my vacation, but direct deposit is a truly wonderful thing, and I have enough space on my credit card to do the whole vacation without any issues. Not that I would mind you, but it's nice to know it would be possible.
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My part in THE big project is nearly done, and I've earned some respect for the work I've done. Personally I don't think I did anything too special, but I'm quite pleased that people are happy with the work I've done. It's funny, it's easy for me, so I don't really see what the big deal is. Maybe everything in life is like that?
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I'm going to run, there's so much more that's happened and that's going on, but I'm out of time for the moment.
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Cya!
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I'm lonely.
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It's been quiet all night. I hadn't really thought about how quiet it gets. I'm out of touch with the people I used to talk to. Normally that doesn't bother me all that much, but right now it's … uncomfortable. I get wrapped up in my own projects from time to time, and that makes it really easy to put everything else on hold. It's only when I'm all caught up, when the work's all done, and my home projects are finally finished, that I realize how much I hate the silence. The few people I could call right now wouldn't help with that any unfortunately. I guess it's something I'll just have to live through.
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Tomorrow I get my car maintenanced. I'm doing it a full month before my vacation, so that any bugs can show up and be fixed before I go 800ish KM to nelson. I have to say, the way I'm feeling now, I almost don't want to go. Perhaps I need a break more than I'd realized. I worked part of this weekend too, and it's an all to regular occurence. I'd like to say it doesn't effect me, that it's just another day, but maybe I'm reaching my limits without even knowing it.
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I'm tired of talking to myself. I'll go away now, thanks.
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Ok, I have to tell you about my day. It totally rocked.
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I'm on the last little bit of my cold, I can feel it melting away, so my head was clearer than it's been in a week or two.
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I finally started to get systems trickling in from our supplier, and filled a few system needs even without them.
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I got my taxes done, and paid the $110 I ended up owing. I then took $3600, and gave it to Josh, so he's not totally screwed by his taxes, which grew because he'd hired me. It's funny, my savings account is flat, but I feel FREE.
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I also got my overtime pay, which means I have nearly a full paycheck sitting in my checking account which doesn't need to go anywhere right away.
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My junior techs have been confirmed, they're starting by monday. I sent a kindly worded letter to clayton, thanking him for his help and support, without which I would've been truly screwed.
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I've got work and meetings and enough excitement to keep me going, and it looks like I won't have to work the weekend. How does life get any cooler than this?
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Honestly? The introduction of someone suitably female and interested. I wish I could add that as a final seal on the “this day seriously rocked” seal, but it's not to be. No matter, everything else has gone so extremely well I refuse to focus on the parts that are still marked pending.
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Oh, and I even have 2 more paychecks before car insurance time, so I might be able to get some repairs done on my car before I take it on my vacation road trip.
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Oh, and I was mistaken for a 26 year old today. Heh 😀
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And someone brought me COOKIES!!!!!
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I love days like these.
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I'm better.
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In fact, I'm a whole lot better. My flu has faded to an unpleasant memory and a lingering warmth. My cold is just sniffles, which are something I can live with.
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I finally got my tax information today. I'm covered. I can afford it. Hell, I'm going to see about paying it off tomorrow!
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My new tech recruits are in the works, the HR department is now going head to head with Clayton Stark, and I pity them.
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And better still, I managed to get the accountants to start processing my overtime (figuring that it was the difference between eating and not), and I should actually have enough after this to keep my car on the road.
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On top of that, I managed to clear away a fair bit of the pending work from last week, so I'm feeling pretty good about myself.
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Personally I only owe about $110, though I'm going to split the debt J incurred, it only seems right, he was going to help me when he legally didn't have to, and now i have a bank account full of cash I'd already written off. Better it's done and no worries eh?
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Anyway, going to go, I have stuff to do before I sleep, and a full work week ahead.
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I hope yours is improving also!
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Damn, temperature going back up. Can't focus my eyes.
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Stop this crazy ride, I wanna get off!
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My fever finally broke, and my temperature's back down to the point where I'm not hallucinating and randomly passing out. I'm glad, because it means I should be well enough by tomorrow to tackle all the work I wasn't able to do this last week.nnI slept for about 11 hours last night, and most of yesterday. It's all a bit of a blur, but it seemed to take forever for the day to pass, and not in a nice way either. nnI want to write more, but I'm feeling worn rather thin at the moment, so I'm going to stop for now.
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The minutes pass so slowly when you're sick.
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I've been fighting this fever since it woke me at 1 am in all it's glory, and I've finally given up on the idea of sleeping.
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I'm right back up in the 102-103F range again, and that's icky. Plus lying down i can't stop shuddering, and that if nothing else will guarantee the minutes pass like days or weeks.
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Lucky me though, I did get to sleep around 10, so I got nearly 6 hours, though not unbroken, I'll take what I can get.
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Hey K, this is funny, for once I'm up ultra super insanely early, and you're no where to be found! Hopefully you're getting some well-deserved rest.
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Jerrett just hired Ben to work at BraveNet. If you don't know WTF i'm talking about, don't worry about it. I think it's going to be an… interesting time.
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More later, when I can type more than 3 works without sneezing!
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I can't sleep. I'm too hot.
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I'm very not good. I hate being sick! I'd much rather be working, I've got lots I should be doing, but I can't concentrate. I've got my balcony window open, and there's a cool breeze blowing in, but it's not really helping.
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I think monday's going to be quite interesting. I've got to take a little time off work to get my tax stuff from Josh, plus 2 meetings, plus hopefully two flunkies, a battle with the accounting department, 1 conference call, 1 battle with HR, plus a few computer fixes.
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I have to be at 100{99f4aabb8f9a8b7318031e7dd7e1d4d33a10ca1a288a083cef0cdea647a62112} monday, or I'll get steamrollered in a big way. That won't do. Plus I've got to start looking into that raise I've been thinking I'm earning. If it's tied to a performance review by HR, I'm pretty fucked. Hopefully I'll get C.S. or C.C. to do it, which should ensure it happens with a minimum of fuss and bother.
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I'm going to jump on a few more projects too I think, because I'M STUPID.
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I can't help it though, I'm fearful of running out of things to do. That's an aweful place to be.
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Anyway, I can't breathe, and this is getting more difficult.
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I'm going to sit outside in the rain I think, and try and cool down!
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