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With so many empty spaces between them, one more surely won't hurt.
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It's extremely hot in my office right now. I wish it was cooler, but it's nearly time to go to sleep, so it really doesn't matter all that much.
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I'm getting a bit calmer where it comes to my job… perhaps it's just less of a feeling of personal attachment to the work. I've reached the point where I simply am not willing to feel bad when things screw up, and I'm long past the point where I'll accept the blame for things beyond my control.
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I don't think everyone's caught on yet. That's one benefit to working so far away from the rest of the office, it makes it more difficult to break into a round of swearing in front of them, and I usually have enough time to calm down before I talk to them next.
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I do wonder sometimes how long I can keep this schedule up though. I was working at 7:30 this morning, and it was nearly 7 when I stopped today. It's frustrating to have the whole day go by and be chained into my chair, to try and schedule a morning shower, and to see 1 o'clock come around before it actually happens. To gulp down my food, and never finish a meal with my wife. To never truly be off duty, and to lose the joy of getting some fresh air when the phone rings.
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We all make our choices though, and this one was mine. I'm going to have to change things within the next month or two, even I've got a breaking point, and I think I'll be nearer to it if I don't change things to get out of the house a bit more. Hell, even babies can't do more than 9 months in a little space without needing to bust out!
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Christina's been wonderful through out this. I can't imagine being sane after 6 months stuck at home by myself!
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We've talked to a financial expert this last week, and it's driven home a sad truth, I'm still not making enough money to ever be more than a renter. I'm going to have to earn about 40{99f4aabb8f9a8b7318031e7dd7e1d4d33a10ca1a288a083cef0cdea647a62112} more reliably to be able to afford a house AND food. It's quite an eye opener, but i'm going to keep trying as hard as i can. I know where I want to get to, and if i can drag myself out of the dirt, I can certainly drag myself a little farther.
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Dear reader, what were you expecting here? I often wonder who reads this stuff, at best it's overly wordy, and at worst it's pointlessly melancholic. Then again, where else am I going to pour this stuff out? The garden wouldn't like it, and this kind of fertilizer isn't what makes the flowers grow up straight and tall after all.
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Tomorrow Christina gets some rather serious dental work done. She's nervous, I'm nervous, and I'm just hoping for it all to go smoothly, and for a speedy recovery. Did i mention I hate problems I can't solve? Do the best I can I guess, and that's all that we can hope for.
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Mr. Man heads back to school next week. As one might imagine, he's absolutely thrilled and excited…. nah, I can't even finish that sentence. He's a bundle of nerves, and I'm just waiting for him to shake a patch out of the floor underneath him. New school, new town, new country, new curriculum… I think I can see a few reasons he might be tense, so I'm trying not to make it any worse… damn my tricky sense of humor…..
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I'm going to cut this short I think.. i have a little time before bed, time to sink into my book for a little.
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If you're actually reading this, as strange as that may be, stay tuned.
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